Friday, August 31, 2007

Last day at Dow Jones

Flowers bloom and wither; clouds gather and disperse; seasons come and go.

8月底的北京已经有了秋天的味道,中午坐在车上,竟然感到风有些凉。从三环一路走来,发现给我留下记忆的都是Sopexa:04年走过的那些地方,05年冬天大董烤鸭店最后的晚餐,而在道琼斯的日子却平淡的没有一丝波澜。这种淡然就像麻药,让我真切地感受到了所谓的退化。

最后一刻让我意外的是一些小同事的open,原来大家都感觉到了这里的不足,外表的光鲜掩饰不了内心的寂寞,我最终的选择是勇敢地迈出去。对于刚步入25岁的我来说,这是一个不小的risk。

很多人都把30岁当成一个坎儿,而在我眼里,这个坎儿是25。过去的三年给了我同龄人没有的经历。出国一直是我的梦想,很羡慕身边踏出国门的人,但是由于种种原因,我只能将它作为我的last choice。

9月份可以算是真正意义上的秋天了,一切都要重新开始,脑中突然出现了一幅画面:七年前,我站在北外的校园里,早上有点冷。

Friday, August 24, 2007

The choice

Yesterday was my last morning shift, my last day to get off work at 3pm.

I went to the exhibition this morning, just to familiarize myself with the new environment. I suddenly felt a bit worried. Is it the right choice to give up my current job when everything is so stable?

If I stayed, I might become a translator and probably have a chance to go to Jersey City for a four-month working trip. But how long would that take? Another two years? Sorry, I can't afford the time. Besides, I'm not really interested in being an uncreative translating machine.

If I left, well, to be honest, I don't know.

Making a choice is the most difficult test that life gives us. Nobody can foresee the influence of a choice in ten years. I don't have a crystal ball; only time can tell. Hope this time I'm not the lousy choice maker.

Monday, August 6, 2007

30 days’ notice

I thought I would be happy after tendering my resignation. But the fact is, I’m not. However I hate the job, I’ve been with this place for over 1.5 yrs and am a bit reluctant to leave. I feel like a traitor being nailed to the pillory, or a prisoner being sentenced to death, waiting for his last day.

I AM glad that I can finally break away from the boring work, (for the most part, I’m shirking), but I’m sad that I’m leaving the office so familiar to me. I’m a little antsy, but my boss sits right next to me, so I must keep my composure and do my job well. It’s the same experience as I left Sopexa. Just hope the last 4 weeks won’t drain me of all strength.

Friday, August 3, 2007

Resignation

It’s not my first time to resign. Though the letter has been in my draft box for long, I hesitated when I sent it. It’s just so hard to click “send”, so hard to say goodbye, which I didn’t expect. J is a nice boss, a knowledgeable man. I knew that since he had first interviewed me. “It’s really a good fight against Murdock!” – he was kidding. Now my days at Dow Jones are numbered. What a shame!

Thursday, August 2, 2007

Everything is illuminated

A job offer from Sony Pictures is probably the best birthday gift I’ve ever received. I’m lucky this time, to get this position coveted by so many. Thanks to Betty, who helped me with the reference check.

I have no excuse to refuse this generous offer. Just as Dow Jones finally sold itself to News Corp. yesterday, I also made a deal for myself.

I thought I would never have a chance to enter Landmark again, but when it really happened, I'm kind of diffident. The future becomes uncertain, for both DJ and me.

PS: It seems I'm drifting away from being an editor... It's only a dream now...