Mirrormask

When I woke up in the morning and saw sunlight slanting through the curtain, I knew it was time for a break. So I’m having a whole week off.

I always do things on a whim. Don’t want to complicate my life with plans and changes, just as I never entangle my neck or wrists with those girlish bling-blings.

That summer on my way home after work, I caught sight of a guy in a swanky car at the crossing of Guanghua Rd, and then the following weekend I was already in the driving school. I wish I could have more such whims. But few things interest me; few people attract my attention. I shrug and say “sorry, I’m not interested” too often.

Of course I can’t say it aloud; there’s a mask I’m wearing. Writing is like a mirror, through which I can see myself clearly.

Back to Shanghai

五月的最后三天在上海度过。又听到了软绵绵的上海话，闻到了空气中湿湿的味道。

29号的晚餐是在高邮路上一家很有情调的餐厅吃的，听名字就很fancy，叫做花马天堂。然后来到浦东，蜻蜓点水般走过那些两个月前刚刚来过的地方。正大广场、滨江大道，一切都那么熟悉，只是找不回上一次雨后在清冷的江边漫步的感觉。还不够尽兴，于是来到新天地。三月底来的时候，不知是因为天气冷还是时间太早，酒吧很是清净。而这次一整条街，居然很难找到露天的空位。其实北京的三里屯应该也一样，只是没有机会去发现。并不喜欢这种嘈杂如闹市的环境，相比之下，星级酒店大堂吧那种悠闲的气氛更让人放松。后来来到一个名叫TMSK的bar，算是同事小聚。很久没有喝红酒了，突然发现几口之后浑身暖暖的感觉很舒服。

出差的行程总是安排得满满的，周六能有机会跟好友见面，已经很难得，不敢奢望更多。酒店对面就是中山公园，其实在北京的时候从来没有逛公园的心情，但到了外地便会做一些平时不会尝试的事情。这几天一直风和日丽，公园里极富生活气息，有人在划船、放风筝、踢足球、打羽毛球、弹吉他、晒太阳。。。在这里感觉不到孤单。可惜时间太短，要走的时候很舍不得，能留下记忆的只剩相机里的几张照片了。如果有时间，会多走几条街，看看街边的老房子。记得有人写过这样一句话：＂In Shanghai, half the fun of getting to where you were going, lay in the journey itself. Beijingers, it seemed, were only interested in the final destination.＂ 的确是这样。不知下次再来这个花花世界，会是什么时候。